Lessons to take into the weekend!

So this week has been both a personal and spiritual growing time for me. To start out the week one of my little angels (who shall remain nameless:=) flooded my upstairs bathroom. This lead to a complete catastrophe that let to a hole in my dining room ceiling, carpet damage and accessing damage cost..as all thing come in three's..shorty after I turned on my fan, being it was a surprising 85 degrees, and my fan light fixture came  crashing down and shattered glass all over. THEN the smoke detector ran out of juice! Now ordinarily  this would not be all that irritating but after the day I was having..it was terrible! I have to admit that I burst into to tears!! I prayed to be calm and amazingly.. I was! 

So I have never been much for praying because I have always felt like i was doing it wrong! I felt such a calm and belief in prayer that it opened up my eyes. Later in the week I was offered a FREE trip to Florida..offered by a man..who I am not dating..much less married to. It seemed like an opportunity I just could not pass up. However, as I thought about it more, I thought to myself..is this something you can do and still feel like me, still feel like I am holding my morals and my promise to the lord?! NO! I am so proud of myself! I feel like I have reached some kind of personal growth that make me sooo happy! Thank you lord!! :-) 

I have been feeling so grateful for the friends I have made in the last 6 months..Iam grateful for the advice that I have been given. I am thankful for people giving me a moral slap in the face :-) not saying well that would be fun, but saying, how is this going to make you feel..how is this going to effect you later..thank you Becky! (i'm sorry for being a flaky scrapbook buddy:-)

So basically I learned this week the power of prayer and the belssing of friends!

Accomplished (an update)!!

Soooo many things have been going on with me lately! I finally!! am back in schol. It is going really well and I am surprised that I am not yet pulling my hair out from being overwhelmed! Being a single parent is so hard sometimes but it still amazes me how the love for three little girls can give me the strength to do ANYTHING!

I have started dating again! eeek... Not really my fav thing about being single but I guess it's necessary unless I want to be sinlge forever!lol! I have went on a few dates but nothing to promising.. I find that my priorities are a bit different than most people i guess.

Not being raised a religious person has always bothered me and I have continued to struggle to find my right place with God... but the other night I had the best dream, although i'm not sure what is was about, I woke up feeling so CONNECTED to him! It was fantastic! I come from an Irish Catholic family and am thinking about taking catholisism classes... I don't know how I feel about it I guess.....

The girls are only a few months from being 8 and 6! eek! Deanna will be a first grader next year, I wonder how I will feel just me and Lola all day! Speaking of..she has hit the terrible twos, something Em and De never did, we are working through it! LOL! a little patience on everyones part!

Well thats it for now. Iam going to try and be a better blogger..HELP ME BECKY!!!!

I may need a little help this year!

I really am in an emotional bind this holiday season! Sometimes as all the holidays come and go i find myself a little challenged to be grateful.
I'd like to spend the holidays being with my family in appreciation of all have have and come out of it all with a big AH HA look at all the blessings you have and the things you have overcome!
Instead i generally, although ever grateful, come out a little bitter in some path life had taken me and also a bit conflicted on some i've taken myself.
This time of year always leaves me remembering my family far away. Every holiday that passes i marvel at how quickly my children are getting older and how sad i am that i can not share it with those closest to me.
This is the first year i spend without my grandpa, who meant the world to me, and so i think this year may be the hardest. Happiness is only as whole a those you share it with.
I have always been blessed in my ability to see through any storm and know that we will always be okay and protected but this year i find myself a bit more challenged than usual.
I wake up every morning to the faces of angels and i know that in so many ways, no matter my hardships, i should not be feeling so alone.
Yet like many i still do. Maybe i am not seeking out God in the way i should. Maybe i'm just overwhelmed by all that i have going on or maybe a just need to go home...

A description of me huh,... hard to keep it short with all of my amazing qualities!! :-)

I am FINALLY going back to school to finish my degree!! 3 more years and i will be a TEACHER! Yippee!!!

I am a full time momaholic, a friend with a shoulder and a drink, a daughter that hopes my chilren never put me through what i put my mom through and a ever learning child of god.

I wake up every morning knowing that no matter what the day throws at me i will end it blessed and happy surrounded by the three muskettets!

My oldest daughter Emma will be 8 in less than 6 months! OMG! The time has flown by and i am amazed by her every day. She is such a great big sister and daughter. She impresses me every moment (well most) with her kindness, humor and abilty to always point out the best in people. She has a ever growing mind and is always trying new things.

In the middle of our chaos we have Deanna who will be 6! in 6 months! She is the warmest most heartfelt child i have ever known. Always looking for a way to make others smile and laugh. She is really in tune with her feeling and wears them on her sleeve. Everyday she makes me remember why i am here and what my purpose is. Unlike her older sister she is more of an artist than an athlete. Everything she creates is a masterpiece and always very colorful. She has more of a stuborn streak than the rest which just brings out that vibrant personality!

Last and of couse not least we have Lola. The baby of our clan she definetly plays the part. Not one to EVER go un-noticed she has more spunk than any kid i have ever met. She is really standing up and becoming her own person. It is unbelievable to me that she is going to be 2 in 2 days! You'd never beleive it though since she is such a talker and so in to doing stuff her sisters are doing, keeping up with the jonses type of girl! She can get away with everything with just a smile and a giggle and i for one enjoy letting her do it!

Well thats us! Hope you enjoy reading my stories and thoughts. Don't forget to comment!

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